My Love Story-Part 3(Operation Whisky)

Curiosity--We had it in OUR WAY

                                                               Frndsss I have told U about my madness for video games,but Iam crazy about one more thing i.e., EATING. In that VideoGame Room we used to eat,eat and eat.She brought me Everything she had in her house for eating.I used to play one level and eat them.We did many things at her house but I just wanted to share One Memorable Thing We did Together and I realised Our Team Work was Awful.Let me START………

                                                              My Uncle has a habit of drinking One Peg of Whisky everyday at night.On that night he made all his arrangements and prepared his Glass for Drinking.We were CURIOUS to know how it tastes because he used to drink it daily and he’s in addicted (in out perspective) to it.So our curiosity propelled Us to try to taste it.My Uncle brought a soda maker for this sole purpose.He did not hide that whisky bottle from Us because I feel he’s professional and he did not realise that “It would be a problem for Us and It would raise some doubts in our MINDS”.But let It be He has his own tensions at work.But that night we wanted to try to make “Operation Whisky” a success and with Determination We moved forward TOGETHER.We decided we should have Our Share of It and dont worry frnds Its just a Cat’s Share.So we started Operation Whisky with confidence.

                                                              So We became WATCHDOGS.My Uncle went up for bath and we “one as watchdog for My Uncle and other for my Aunt were observing their moments Carefully.As my uncle went to bath,Our Concentration diverted onto my Aunt.She is cooking food for Us.So at a fine Moment we went to that Glass which is holding that Foreign Drink.It was a Big One  and the doubts I used to have on that are now cleared.With sense of Curiosity but Guilt and Fear,I took the Glass and had a  SIP,and yaaaaaaaak IT WAS WEIRD.I felt as a Boy I should show Her “How Its Done” and I did it.She with some confidence on me had her share of it.But she did not feel like I felt that foreign drink.But God it was over “Operation Whisky” Successfully Completed.From that Day,remembering the Taste of it,I feared even to see that,but she took it more casually as she saw her father drink daily and she saw it and felt its presence in her house daily.But friends  I request U not to blame Us because we were just kids.We didnt know what we were doing but our Curiosity and Enthusiasm did the Job for Us.

                                                       Now I feel there’s no wrong in doing it but “NOT TOGETHER”  because Iam sure I wont get atleast 1% support from her side as She is Grown UP.I dont have any problem repeating Operation Whisky when I meet her but I fear asking her because naturally She wont Accept. I believe she hates her father in this aspect and I dont want to be the Second ONE and I just cant bear It.

                                                   Frndssss This is Operation Whisky and dont worry there are many more Operations to SHARE  with U and surely U’ll Love Them as I LOVE HER

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Are U FREE????

Iam Trying to HELP U but Im unable to Succeed

                                                                India has started celebrating its 62nd year of Independence ie., it has been free from the hands of The British for the past 61 years.After 6 days the year has started,I went into dilemma  about your independence.I doubt whether Ur enjoying the freedom or not as a Citizen of India.The main reason for these kinds of weird doubts in my mind is nothing but LOVE.I love U so much that Ive prisoned U in my heart since childhood but Ur unable to realize that U are living in MY HEART and only Ur material parts are enjoying the pleasures of the outside world.Frnds If U are confused,I’ll try to explain U with the help of MATRIX movie because movies impact people so much that they’ll understand everything shown by them.In Matrix movie people consider they are living in a real and true world but practically their minds are controlled by machines and they are grown in some specified chambers to convert them into mere batteries for their energy supplies.Like this Ive prisoned her and Im controlling her mind so that she believes she is living in the real world but she isn’t.

                                                                Every heart has 4 chambers but naturally not mine.It possesses an extra one for my Prisoner of Love.It was made just for her without my Permission and probably NATURE also knew that I would fall in LOVE with her surely.It has a special connection with my LUNGS which forces half of the oxygen produced into that chamber.That chamber has no blood flow and Its just filled with oxygen in which each atom of it holds some memory of my childhood spent with her.This is the reason why I suffer with breathing problems often.But one thing…. Im forcibly inducing all the material I possess into her so that One day She’ll realize How Much I Love Her.I know Its wrong from one perspective but what to do I need her badly.Without her,I dont see life anywhere including the inside of me.I told Ive prisoned her but she is enjoying all those luxuries Im providing her and She is not caring me atleast for this also.But frnds Though Im not Her Prisoner which I wanted to be My Entire Life,Im satisfied atleast she gave me this privelege unknowingly.

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Day Of Agony…..CLIMAX

Really....I was just FLYING

    Frnds Plzzz read the previous post to understand this…..Let me continue

                            At 10:25 I got a message from HER.It was……..”Wat Happened”.Then without wasting even a second I called HER.She also LIFTED MY CALL with the same pace.I heard her “HELLO”.I thought to cut my call because I felt a SENSE of HAPPINESS in her TONE.But I could not do so because “I LOVE HER”.But i wanted just to know whether she is happy or not and I dont wanted to BORE HER with my BLOODY CHAT.But I believe SHE did not feel like that and Iam happy about that.She talked to me like before but used the word “wat else” many times giving me an impression that she wanted to end it soon.But let it be If SHE cant talk to ME like that who else will do…..She is MY LOVE.

                      MIRRORBOY wants to give a brief chat about wat she talked with him.How is his IDEA FRNDS????

Me:How are U???  she:Fine.    M:Why did U not lift my phone at 10:00?    S:i was taking my supper     S:Whats the reason for the call????  M:No special reasons just called casually…    S:wat else??? M:Let me think….Wat do I know????    M:when Is Ur bday???   S:why???   M:U only asked me to say something and I asked.   M:please tell me i think it is in MARCH    S:who told U??? M: I just remembered U telling me when we were small I guessed..  M:Date please  S:U only find out U are interested in gathering my info…   M:Thats true but i want it from U    S:Ask MY brother He’ll tell U   M:It will raise many doubts pls tell me.   M:i think It is on 12…      S:Who told U????   M:I guessed Is it right??   S:ya it is..   S:wat else???   M:(I wanted to tell her abt my blog but suppressed my feelings and cont…)     S:I dont lift Ur phone afterwards…. M:why????    S:whats the need of calling me????   M:If U dont believe me,I cant help.Iam calling just casually as a friend and please believe me.  S:ok.    M:Do ur parents know this????   S:No but many know about it.   M:Who knows???   S:My entire frnds know that my cousin proposed to me.   M:Leave it please I trying to forget what has happened and become normal.   Tell them he left that….  S:Why dont ‘U’ look for someone in Ur place?????

                                     SILENCE…………FRNDS dont think too much….LIne got CUT as balance is over.So thats It MY frnds MY CONVERSATION with HER.Though Ended Abruptly Iam happy bczzzzzzzzzzzzz

                                     “SHE HEARD ME” and I slept HAPPILY forcing HER to come into MY DREAMS.

                                

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DAY OF AGONY……

It Didn't LAST LONG

                                        On Monday,once again MY Thoughts went gloomy because Ive decided to call HER every MONDAY night at 10 and today I had to call her.I want to TALK to HER something though MY MOUTH goes DUMB whenever I hear her voice.You may be thinking that this GUY is not this generation LOVER and I frankly AGREE to that.Thats why Iam trying to REACH HER through a BLOG which many think is the MOST WEIRD IDEA in their perspectives.Let them think,I have my own PATH to follow as Iam the ONE LOVING HER and not them.Iam trying to bring all the COURAGE I have into my mouth and TALK to Her SOMETHING,But I dont think I’ll be ABLE TO do.I believe may be I would be able to crack IIT entrance exam than getting pass marks in this exam.From NIGHT 7 onwards MY ANXIETY reached the MAX.I thought when that moment would arrive and opposing MY DESIRE my HEAD was aching like that hit by a HAMMER.I dont know why.But I saw NATURE is also OPPOSING MY Plans as its CLOUDY that night and is READY TO RAIN.I dont know how I’ll be able to wait upto 10 but to MY  Astonishment The MOMENT arrived soon.I was sure that HER Words will be FOOD for ME that night and I did not EAT.

                                  My anxiety Propelled ME to search for HER NUMBER and AT 9:55 PM With MY Heart Pounding at 100 beats/min I called HER…….

                                  She did not LIFT the Phone and naturally It did not SURPRISE ME .I laughed at MYSELF  and went to sleep after deciding to Call HER once again at 10:30 PM. In this half an hour Physically Iam HERE But the ENTIRITY of MY HEART AND MIND was in HER House.For a moment I thought with MY HEART she would have kept her phone in silent mode and In another ANGLE MY MIND told me SHE knowingly did not lift Ur CALL.The Second Thought did not even win 1% of VOTES in MY MIND as MY mind also got fixed on HER afterwards…..Then It was 10:25 and a MESSAGE came from HER on PHONE……

                                What would IT be???? Did I call HER?????  HOW MY Day of AGONY ENDED???? Or It continued LIKE THAT…..TO know U should READ MY NEXT POST……

                           Frndzzzzz Dont MISS IT U’ll Understand Something from THAT……Bye for NOW

                                  

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IS LOVE A PAIN??????

But...Why Its Paining Me?????

                                                    “LOVE”–I wonder HOW this 4 LETTER word came into EXISTENCE.I SEARCH many websites to know “who coined this Wonderful But Painful Word”,but To MY Astonishment it is Unanimously voted that “NATURE” has coined It and Forcibly INDUCED it into the MENTAL PSYCHE of LIVING BEINGS.As HUMANS are very SELFISH they have taken the DOSE in EXCESS and now they FEEL for that.If really “NATURE” coined that word then It would become the BEST FRND of MINE as It is giving ME Painful HAPPINESS in Every Moment I Live….”NATURE”!!!! Ive become Ur Greatest PATRON and I will be FOREVER.I believe NATURE would have thought that It is BETTER to STORE LOVE in the MINDS of Living Beings and rightly INDUCED it into the MENTAL PSYCHE.But….! Humans are so Intelligent and Stupid that THEY REVOLTED against the NATURE LAWS and Transferred that LOVE from MIND TO HEART  and gave that WORD the Highest Priority in their LIVES.So OUR HEART became so ADDICTED to LOVE through the AGES that It even DARES to DIE for Acquiring that 4 Letter Word from Another PERSON.Sooo Im also a Bloody HUMAN BEING and MY HEART also possesses some Place for LOVE.But… Iam so FOOLISH that I gave away the Entire KINGDOM of MY HEART to it freeely without any WAR. I think dats Why It is KILLING ME Using a WEAPON, with Which I spent MY CHILDHOOD With.I have the ABILITY to BREAK THE SHACKLES of LOVE BONDING,But I dont want TO bcz I believe… THAT PAIN will be Transferred into EVERLASTING HAPPINESS once SHE Accepts MY LOVE.Im not a COWARD and I’ll Remain “FIGHTING”.

                                                 Iam living in a DEEP ABYSS ( a vast.bottomless pit ) as I have THROWN MYSELF into that last DECEMBER.But  Iam happy bcz at BOTH OPENINGS SHE Peeps into the PIT and Checks Whether iam ALIVE or NOT.If She finds Im safe,then SHE leaves ME Like That Without MERCY.She doesn’t CARE How Im LIving,What Im Doing and How Im Sustaining That Much Pain.She just want Whether Im Alive or Not.I want to KILL HER for Doing That but I Dont Bcz “I LOVE HER”.How CAN I DO THAT???????? as I WAIT for EVERY OPPURTUNITY to HELP HER, to MAKE HER LAUGH, to SEE HER HAPPY, to FILL HER WITH MY LOVE and more importantly to RISK MY LIFE TO SAVE HER’S.But for ME its NOT At ALL “A RISK” bcz Its MY DESTINY,Its for What IAM LIVING FOR.I think,ONLY When I die,She takes the initiative to REMOVE ME from That ABYSS to BURY ME.MY LIFE would have some MEANING atleast SHE Is BURIED by MY SIDE after HER DEATH.Atleast,after that MY SOUL can SLEEP happily IN PEACE.GOD if U are There Let Me DIE For HER.Atleast I’ll Become “THE KING OF HER HEART” after I DIE.

                                   Sorry GOD Im Taking MY Request Back bcz IF her LIFE is at RISK then SHE will some PAIN in HER and I DONT want U to Give THAT PAIN Also To HER as I CANT TOLERATE even the Slightest Pain in HER.She has To LIVE HAPPILY and I’ll MAKE THAT COME TRUE.

        “If U’ll Be HAPPY When Im Not There,I DONT MOVE AWAY.. I’ll DESTROY MYSELF”        

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HONEYYY….WHY DID U CHANGE ME??????

Believe IT Or NOT---IT'S "TRUE"

                          Sometimes I’ll be VERY SAD(for a short time though) Thinking “WHY DID I LOVE HER”.I know ,Now U may be wondering “Is He Playing Any JOKES”.I want to tell U “HUMBLY” that “I’m NOT”.Here In our BLOG there is no place for JOKES as this is “MY REFLECTION” and I dont think Iam a “JOKER”.But If my Idiotry makes U laugh,I dont care and If U believe Iam another “MONKEY-BRAND” then also I dont care.All I care is ‘HER’.Her INTERESTS,Her EMOTIONS,Her TASTES and Everything relating to ‘HER’.As I saw her from MY CHILDHOOD I Believe,She doesn’t hate IDIOTS  and thats enough for ME.

          FRNDZZZZ Im once again diverting Ur Track.Sorry for this.Let ME Continue……

                         I was thinking “Why did I LOVE HER”.Frndzzz dont be confused.I’ll explain.I was talking about the CHANGE that SHE has brought in ME.I dont know whether I like it or not,But At Times when I bring back MY CHILDHOOD to MY MEMORY,then I feel really SAD about the change because in MY SCHOOL,I used to RULE as a 1st rank holder and the School Pupils Leader(SPL) of my school.But NOW Im NOTHING.I even fear to look into the EYES of GIRLS as if I did any MISTAKE.My School Says were Wonderful.Girls would fear looking into MY EYES because at that TIME Im that CONFIDENT.But NOW Even 1% of it is NOT LEFT.I used to SHAKE the CLASS but NOW When a GURLZ Group comes opposite to MY PATH,Many Thoughts BLOCK MY MIND whether to LOOK at THEM and SMILE (or) to ROTATE MY HEAD in Opposite Direction giving THEM an Impression that Im NOT INTERESTED (or) I should DROP MY HEAD DOWN and Cross THEM Silently.See My condition,Iam just LIVING for HER THAT’S ALL and Nothing else In MY LIFE.I know Many Boyz have Similar Kind Of Thoughts but Im only Interested in ME and MY REFLECTION.

                          MY LOVE for HER has Brought ME from “THE KING” to just “A SOLDIER” fighting for HER HEART.Friends actually I dont MEAN that but ITS TRUE.But Ive told ‘U’ that MY SADNESS lives ONLY for a SHORT MOMENT because MY HEART will be continuously MONITORING MY THOUGHTS and If it FINDS that They are going AGAINST HER then It will CUT them without MERCY and ONCE AGAIN I become a ROMEO and the REVOLT Is SUPPRESSED.But let it be and lets see What will happen to ME because “ONLY SHE HAS THE RIGHTS TO CHANGE AND DESTROY THE MECHANICS OF MY BODY AND MIND–IT IS SURE”.

                      But LEAVE IT Frndzzz No Problem bcz “I LOVE HER” and SHE IS “MY LIFE”.

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SUSPENSE–>A “BDAY GIFT” from ME

WHY be SILENT--Even U can SAY THIS

                                                    Frndzzzzzz I decided to continue my story as I came up with a different idea.At times I doubt my “love on her” because even I love her so much I dont know  her BIRTHDAY.Wat an IDIOT Iam???? But I feel GIRLS love Idiots and Monkeys to make Myself Happy and May be It’s True to my Psychological Knowledge.

                                         She doesnt tell me when “A GIRL who stole MY HEART was BORN”-sorry,sorry I did not ask her and I wanted to give her a surprise.But HOW TO KNOW her birthday!!!!! If I ask her brother It would lead to many doubts and My Family Members would KILL ME for doing so.Frndzzzz Im just cracking my brain for ideas and Im sure I’ll come up with a fantastic one.I’ll tell U afterwards.

                                               I said I came up with a different Idea.Every LOVER presents a gift to his/her LOVED ONE on his/her Birthday.Now U may be thinking Wat SHIT is HE telling???We all know that!!!! But wait My Friends Wat they present–>A Greeting,A Bouque,A Momento etc.Sorry frnds I could not make a big list because I did not present any GIFT to MY LOVE…..Dont Pity ME.Iam Ready to give her the biggest gift of her life ie.,MY LOVE…Funny!!!! May be she doesnt want BIG GIFTS and dats why she is NOT ACCEPTING ME.

                                             Leave It frnds Im diverting Ur Journey.Coming to point My IDEA is to “Give MY BLOG AS HER BIRTHDAY GIFT”. Frndzzzzz Wat do U think of MY IDEA.Is it DIFFERENT???? But If U say NO Im not going to LEAVE IT because I have a HABIT of listening to MY HEART only and dats Why Im Falling Behind HER inducing MADNESS into ME MySELF.I thought If I could Gift HER “MY THOUGHTS” When Iam away from HER atleast Then Her HEART would MELT.Im not sure But “LET ME TRY”.But Im in a doubt that She would Find “ONLY HER” In “MY THOUGHTS”.Does it Bore Her???? Let Her feel!!!! Iam feeling the TORTURE for the past 8 MONTHS.Why cant She Tolerate Some Bore to KNOW ME????? But Im writing this with “MUCH PAIN” because MY HEART is kicking me from inside and It stopped BLOOD SUPPLY To MY FINGERS As It feels Im HURTING HER. My BLOODY HEART It is Sooooo SELFISH.Thats Why I love It.But Im serious now And I DONT HEAR It’s WORDS atleast for now.

                                    I Believe My GIFT would Be Presented to HER in a NET Centre….Soooo Weird But What to do??????

                                   I want to be BY HER SIDE when I Present It BECAUSE IF She accepts MY LOVE Seeing “OUR BLOG” Thennnnnn…..!!!!    See MY SELFISHNESS “I JUST DONT WANT TO MISS THAT FIRST KISS FROM HER ON MY CHEEKS”.      But Wat to do “IAM TIRED FiGHTING WITH MY INNER WORLD FOR HER and I BECAME WEAK.I WANTED POWER and NATURALLY SHE IS MY “POWERHOUSE”.

                                    Frndzzzz U may be THINKING This GUY is ‘A DAY-DREAMER”  and Please DONT CONFORM IT because I have a GOOD ANSWER for It and That is “LET ME TRY–>NOTHING  IS IMPOSSIBLE”.

                                Byeeeeeeeeeeeee For Now.I want to make “MY GIFT” LOVELY……DONT DISTURB….!!!!                                               

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Ur Tearing Me Apart

My Heart's Going To Burst

What can I say about MY CONDITION????

                    I even fear to blink because If I close my eyes then in that split second also her memories haunt me…..Though It makes me HAPPY,My HEART in left alone as my MIND isolates it from all other organs of my BODY.

                   You are destroying the UNITY Inside MY BODY  and surely I believe U only have the RIGHT to do so…..

                 MY Brother told me “If U talk with other girls,then naturally U’ll forget her.It will relieve  U of some of the pain”.But I fear talking to girls in my college and becoming close to them bcz if I forget U,surely I’ll be DESTROYED.If U dont live with me all Ur life physically,I dont care and surely I can spend my entire life with Ur thoughts as MY FOOD,as MY BED,as MY WORK,as MY DESTINY and more importantly as MY LIFE.

                 But I cant imagine a LIFE without Ur thoughts because without them Iam nothing more than a “PRIVELEGED DESTITUTE” and I know “IT’S THE END”.

                “BELIEVE…… I’M WAITING FOR U RIGHT HERE”

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